My current theory is biochemistry. I used to have willpower and interest and focus and now I don't. I used to learn and understand things on one reading, and now I'm permanently tired. I don't do large projects for the same reason that I don't run the dishwasher: lack of botheredness. At the moment the lack of botheredness is strong enough to kick in early in the considering-the-design stage 8-(
I don't experience unbotheredness as an acquired moral failing, and in fact I'm much happier on those rare occasions when it goes away. I think I was very lucky that I had much botheredness and learnt easily as a kid; it must be much harder to get through the school system without. I think it's chemical.
--PAS (who is employed doing middling-size projects and so could do without becoming googlable on this)
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I don't experience unbotheredness as an acquired moral failing, and in fact I'm much happier on those rare occasions when it goes away. I think I was very lucky that I had much botheredness and learnt easily as a kid; it must be much harder to get through the school system without. I think it's chemical.
--PAS (who is employed doing middling-size projects and so could do without becoming googlable on this)
This kicked in on me recently. It sucks.